Reply To: Joy of Living Level 3 Discussion

Bonsoir Lucas,

You have no idea how helpfull your answer has been and still is !
I had never considered that compassion could be a concept !
Or that there could be no sense of compassion in the meditation itself.

Thanks a lot.

Since your answer, something almost as unexpected as non-conceptual meditation happened.
I read a lot of the new Mingyur Rimpoche’s book, Dying every day, and I decided to apply the reflexion and meditations about my own
“identity’s habit” just before going to Canada for a trek, with 12 persons I did not know before.
I hate groups.
But this time, I shifted my identity’s habits and I am still marveling at the results !
I discovered I possesed resources I had no idea (and alas, some body limitations which could not be changed).

I carried on whith shifting my perception of my own identity, each time it tried to rule my life again, and the very day I was back at work, after the Canada trek, there was a crisis which made me decide, on the spot, to anounce I would no longer work there.
And -I still can’t believe it- in two weeks I looked for and found a new job WHITHOUT BEING IN AN EMOTIONAL TURMOIL.
I mean : I am usually a volcano, and I was a lake during all this period.
It was “so not me” !!!
And it was not pleasant at all : I was so calm !!! It was like staggering (en état de sidération).
I went step by step to look for a job, without fear and without hope : emotionally “off”.

I was practicing JoL 3 (except for 15 days in Canada) and striking the root of my identity’s habit whenever I was aware of them.

I wondered and I still do : is it possible that practice may have such an effect ?!
Or did I make this happen -this absence of emotion ?
I am a bit lost…

Last but not least, I decided to join Joy of living program on line but made a mistake and subscribed instead to “Vajrayana on line” : so I am happily back to Nature of mind practice and to Mahamudra.
And back to weeping on my cushsion during each meditation’s session (20 minutes), smiling at the same time…
Maybe I am crazy after all !!

Thanks again for being present in this topic.